so, jamie...well, let's say i accept being the pot to her kettle. slow and steady vs. high and whiney. wait - unfortunately i'm usually the kettle to her pot. sigh.
i thought that not a lot had been going on, but i was wrong. after i "graduated" in may (yes, sr. lloyd, i now acknowledge the fake-ness of it all), i continued my work study position at asu through july 3. i was released at the end of my allotment, only later to find that "they" had added an extra K to my funding, a little too late. so i've been home for four weeks (four...weeks...), and have reached the end of myself many times over.
the first few days were easy-peasy, with a little bit of sleeping in followed by garden watering, chicken feeding and egg wrangling; a few hours job searching and sending resumes to postings on craigslist, monster, jobbing, careerbuilder, etc; then a few hours of cleaning the kitchen, grocery shopping and cooking dinner most nights. i had an interview the first day of my work-cation, but managed somehow to tell the interviewer that, actually, i went back to school to get out of the mortgage/corporate world. it was hard to mask my relief at not being offered an auditor position, but i was able to feel sufficiently snubbed just the same. (come on, people, i know auditor and editor kind of sound the same, but i'm pretty sure what i applied for was editor.)
the second week came and went like the first, and though i had an infinite amount of free time, i ended up on the couch a lot that week, not doing homework to finish my last class strong, but just sitting there. i think i got through another season of alias that week, lost in the exciting life of sydney bristow and her burgeoning romance with agent vance. my dreams took up a sense of urgency that week, so i have taken a little break from sydney and will try to keep it to two or three episodes per week, rather than per afternoon.
then it all went to hell.
my housemate wendi had already been to new hampshire and back on the first leg of her sabbatical vacation, and was home not quite 24 hours before starting off on The Road Trip. i decided (rather wisely, i thought) that i should not spend time and money on a road trip when i could stay home for free, and hopefully have a job lined up when she got home ten days later. so off she went and it was just joyLynn and me in the house, since we had managed to get cori on a plane to ecuador for her seven-week stint with engineers without borders. i made a free initial training appointment with my gym, got my butt kicked by the nice trainer man then declined his very pricey services since i am broke with no prospects, and came home to a ringing cell phone. "this is air1 calling, and we're just catching up with our listeners to make sure we have current contact information." (well, i haven't "listened" to air1 in about 5 years, more like a stop there from time to time when going through all the stations.) "are you still at [current address]?" yes...though how would they possibly know that? "ok, good. well, is there anything we can pray about for you?" i told her that yes, i am looking for a job and having a terrible time finding anything to apply for, then i started crying and quickly got off the phone. and, at least on the inside, i haven't stopped crying since.
so i made an appointment to see a counselor at school since that week i was stuck in the mire of depression, and also made a stop at jamie's for some wine, couch and jamie at home (funny, huh? jamie dvr's my tv-boyfriend for me) therapy. and after both sessions i feel better, more hopeful. still tired and frustrated, but not so close to the end of the rope. wendi came home just over a week ago and rushed jacy and me off to the biltmore for some swim-up bar time. sushi and martinis at blue wasabi, then chocolate cake from room service lifted our spirits enough to enjoy the super luxurious down-covered beds, where we all stayed until just before check-out time. we had some drama by the pool, with a stolen hat and a bee that marked my head for his target, but it was a nice "other side of town" get-away just the same. and with wendi around, there's little time for tv. we have almost finished a new chicken fence so that we can take back control of the patio and compost pile. and i've come back around to cooking and baking a bit...just need friends to eat the end results since i usually cook enough to feed a small village.
yesterday morning i had my second interview of those four weeks. i think it went well, though that makes me nervous because usually i am offered positions after interviews that suck. but i shall wait and keep applying, and if i am not chosen, well, let's just hope the interviews start stacking up a little more frequently. trader joe's told me to try back in august, so try back i will. in the meantime i am babysitting for home church kids and family, and maintaining my role as housewife by keeping up with the dishes and vacuuming. my last class of undergrad work ends this friday, praises be. below, a little picture gallery of projects and day-to-day happenings. i'll try to blog more and hopefully will have good news of the "i was offered a job" sort soon. very, very soon.
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